I like meeting new people, so I tend to talk a lot and I want to keep the conversation going, haha. I realize it could get annoying at times, but that’s just me. I’ve learned to let it go when people aren’t the same as me in that way. On the other hand, if you love to converse, you’re cool.
That’ll be all. Short rambling after work, nothing big or directing toward anyone haha.
As much as I try to sleep, my head is filled with thoughts wandering off in so many directions. Thoughts of my past and what I’ve gone through getting to where I am. Where I messed up and could have done something different, you know? All that stuff. The “What if’s” in life”, you can call it. Then… there are the thoughts about my future. Where will I end up? Everything that lies ahead is like a dark winding path, something new around each corner. I just don’t know what it is until I get up close to it. I like this though, because I am an adventurous, outgoing type of person, I want to take risks to see where I get. I want to be able to tell the tale of how I get where I will be in however many years. People may think they know my back story and me personally, but no one knows what I’ve encountered and what I’m going through right now. All this crazed madness going on in my mind… I don’t know where I’m going with this, I just wanted to write it out. I’m somewhat disappointed in my past and I’m scared for the future. Nothing has stopped me before and I’m ready to take on any obstacles ahead of me. Where there is a problem, there will always be a solution. Success… success comes from me, myself, and only I.
Hmm… let’s talk a little bit about my first year in college. I don’t really want to talk about my academics, because that’s really boring, yadadamean? Going into college with the full dorming experience, I thought I knew what to expect, but I later found out that I didn’t. Being away from home for a bit sounded like an easy task, but right as my parents left me on that first day and dropped me off, I got insta-homesick. It was odd, I got a feeling of being lost, like I didn’t know where to go after they left. It finally hit me that it actually happened, my parents left, and I was on my own for the next 2-3 months before Thanksgiving break. First week was WoW (Week of Welcome), and that was what really got me to like college. We were in groups of about ten people from our dorms, and it was to get everyone to know each other over the week before school actually started.
Throughout the year though, I wasn’t as close with them because our Leaders didn’t really hold many events. I got close to people on my floor, because those were the people I saw everyday. To be honest, I wasn’t really satisfied with the people I roomed with. I must admit, they were really talented people when it came to playing music… but the times they chose to play music, oh gosh. My roommate from Washington was the one I was closer too, but he was dirty in general. I didn’t really care about the fact that he drank and smoked and all of that, but he didn’t shower often, even after basketball and soccer and all of that. People down the hall would be scared to come into our room because he had a ginormous pile of clothes on the floor, and in a dorm room? That must take up about 1/3 of the room. -.- Everyday, I tried to go outside and play basketball a little bit, just to keep the rhythm of my shot and whatnot. I never really had anyone to play with, but as the year went on, I got both my roommates into basketball, my hallmates, and my whole dorm. That’s one thing I really loved about dorming, was all the guys athleticism and wanting to play sports all the time. Friday’s were Football Friday’s and we’d always have 7 on 7’s down on the field, and 2-3 times a week, we’d be running 5’s at night till the lights turned off. I just love being active and that’s where we clicked the most. Everyone didn’t want to sit inside and study, sit behind their computer, or just talk, everyone wanted some good ol’ competition.
On the second week of school, I joined TVSA (Thai Vietnamese Students Association). I was a part of a few clubs in high school, and I really liked the feeling of being around a group of people who are close to each other, being able to talk to them comfortably. This right here is my big:
… and though I didn’t really talk to him the whole year, he is a pretty cool guy. I wish I was closer to him though, you know? Have someone to turn to when I needed help, but it’s all gravy, I knew he was a busy guy with his schoolwork. He was telling me about how his big didn’t really show up to meetings and hang out with him, the irony. x.x I’m excited to see these people again though, because next year, I’d be picking up my own little. I really want to look after someone and help guide someone through college. I’m a sympathetic person, and I like being there for people, and meeting people. If you know me, you know that I am talkative and that I’m comfortable talking to people.
I started to drift away from TVSA Winter Quarter and I joined CSA, because I got invited to join their basketball team of Intramurals. This was probably one of the peaks of college for me, because this was when I got to meet all the great people I know today. I had so much in relation to these people, and we would always hang out on and off campus at least every other weekend. We would hang out in each others dorms, go eat downtown, and ofcourse, play basketball on our free time. I started playing the second week, and the started me at PG haha, that was a great feeling. They’ve seen me play at the rec, and they asked me to play out of the blue. It was nice knowing that all that hardwork I put up with through the Summer came to good use.
As the year withered down, everything got more bittersweet. Toward the end, everyone wanted to hang out with each other, trying to grab food with one another as much as we could, but everyone was so excited to go home, spend time with family and friends. The group of people that I’ve met throughout college has really made me who I am. I went into college with a thought in mind: “no one knows anything about your past, so why let it effect who you’re going to be.” I didn’t show them my sorrows from the Summer, I didn’t show them any complications I had from back home. I was just being someone who was willing to meet anyone, and be real with anyone, nothing fake. It was an opportunity for me to shift my life to a different perspective. Be true to myself, because that’s what’s most important. The whole Summer of 2011, I was pretty depressed I must admit. There was so much going on in my life, and I just wanted to get out of San Diego, I wanted to meet new people, I wanted to try new things. College did just that for me, with all the different experiences of living on my own and doing what I want to do, not what others want me to do. I wanted to be independent, because my whole life, I’ve been too dependent on others.
We all got a quote the first week, and mine was:
"If you want something you’ve never had, do something you never have."
I’ve lived by this, and so far, it has treated me well.
Thanks to California Polytechnic State University, San Luis Obispo for allowing me to attend your school, it really has changed me for the better. To whoever reads this, I hope you’ve found out a little more about me, and if you want to know anything, message me :].